First time here we go.

My Life overview as a child.

My quick overview of life as a child. Very simple typical living in a home with a single mother worked first shift no matter the pay just so she could be home with us and spend time with us as we grew up. Limited income every summer me and my siblings had to get a job to help pay for our school clothes. Blue berry field it was for me every summer. My mother would work all morning from 6am to 3pm and then come home and we would work in the field till 9pm and always worked on the weekends as well. It was slow hard boring money but I learned a lot and learned the value of money and how important it was. I hated the ideal of working so hard so young and not getting to enjoy my life like the rest of the spoiled brats I went to school with, but I look at this situation now as a blessing that made me the strong and independent women that I am now.

I hated school and rarely attended I usually missed a day or two a week. I'm not bragging by no means. My daughter now attends school regularly and I understand the importants of school as an adult. I never had a boyfriend all through school and finally when I was 16 I met a guy online in a yahoo chat room. I was engulfed with love for this guy. He showed me so much attention and talked to me regularly. He was awesome all I ever wanted. He was smart, witty, intelligent and like alot of the same things I did. Unfortunately this person lived so far away. Even though he was so distant we where so close. Constantly talking and sharing everything with each other. There was of course things about our relationship that did send up red flags to me. Unfortunately I was young and wanted so desperately what we had that i ignored and made excuses for everything. I finally had to face them and called him out of them. Things such as why he always called me from pay phones or only at a certain time while at work or only during certain times of the day and the fact that I could never call him only after he purchased a cell phone even then it was always at a scheduled time. So i confronted him about these things and he finally confessed and broke my heart into a million tiny pieces.

The Truth is finally revealed.

So he admits that he is actually married ( should have seen that coming) that he doesn't have one child that I was aware of but in stead has three, ohh and that hes not really 28 but rather something like 32. Well of course I broke the relationship off and my life had changed I was so engulfed with him that once he wasn't their anymore I was lost and so lonely because I had essentially secluded my life to just focus on him. So I contacted him again and it all started back up all over again. Even though I knew the truth now he told me how he did love his wife and blah blah blah but our relationship had not really changed we where still in so much love. When I was 18 after talking everyday for two years we met and our life pretty much began. I had got into the very last fight with my mother and told him to come get me. We had met just a hand full of times before this dramatic move but I didn't know or feel any fear from him. and I moved 700 miles away from my friend my family and all that I knew. Dropped out of high school and moved.

TO BE CONTINUED.....